We survived!

Well Ladies and Gentleman, It’s December 22, 2012 and we survived. The world is still here, humans are still on it, and I am still hanging on to my lovely, chaotic existence. While it is before christmas and too early to start setting my New Years resolutions in stone for  the new year, I think that waking up to a beautiful new day gives me the opportunity to focus on what I want to start working on in my life: the areas I want to start focusing on more.

  1. My Medical Issues: I am already working on those but I think it’s time to really focus on them. I have a Gyn appt in January to work on the ovarian cyst issue and I am going to have to get an appt with a gastroenterologist now that I have found out that the surgical ooption is off of the table for my chronic diverticulitis. I also need to get back in with the dentist to work on my teeth as they are not happy and I never followed up after my last major dental procedure because it hurt so much. I need to get back to them and follow up.
  2. My Mental Health: I need to find a way to work with my P-Doc or find someone who will work with me. I also need to find ways to minimize stress and find therapuetic outlets for the things I am going through. I also need to get back into my DBT practice and start to focus on some of those excercises. I also need to get focused with Dr. Kuna and find a way to really concentrate on issues that are bothering me and work with him on those instead of wasting time on less meaning ful things.
  3. My Physical Health: I need to get back into eating healthy and getting regular exercise and start working on my body even though I know I am not well. A little bit will go a long way.
  4. My Creative/Artistic side: I need to find a way to feed that part of me more and spend less time in front of the tv. I also need to organize my space and my supplies. I woudl also like to network more so I can take classes or go to concerts or go to galleries. I don’t have to isolate and do it all by myself.
  5. My environment: My house is a mess and filthy. It causes external choas to my internal choas. I need organize and downsize and clean and make arrangement to get the house fixed.
  6. My Financial situation: I need to spend less and utilize more. No more spending sprees when I can use what i have. I also want to set up an ebay and etsy store to sell thigns that I can’t use or don’t need anymore. I also need to start arraqnging to pay off some of my bills.
  7. My relationships: I need to find more balance in my relationships. I neglect my huasband in favor of Katherine or Paul quite often because I do not have the energy for all three. I also do nto spend nearly enough itme with my son because I am tired. I also neglect spending face timewiht Katherine in favor of phone time because I over spend and do not save for trips to see her. I also do not spend enough time with friends or making time for friends or penpals and that is not fair to them. I need to Find Balance.

I guess the whole key to this thing is Finding Balance. I really need that most of all. KIt’s alot to tackle but if I take baby steps and make little changes in each area I will make big changes in the long run. Anyways that’s my big thoughts status post Doomsday. Love to all my friends and followers.



Random thoughts on the impending “Doomsday prophecy”

Well folks, 5 days and counting till doomsday, the famous Mayan Prophecy that some people swear by and some people dismiss as hooey. I myself have been preoccupied with every special on it, sucked in by the hoopla, watching every Mayan Prophecy, Book of Revelations, and doomsday show on H2, Nat Geo, and Smithsonian Channel and have been amazed at the amount of theories, information, and contradictions that everyone has come up with. What I have come up with is this, that the Mayan civilization was an incredible but very hostile civilization who was way beyond it’s time in the fields of astronomy, astrology, and chronology. That does not mean that they know the future any more than anyone else. They themselves did not predict their own tragic demise. In addition, the Dresden Codex, which is relied on to interpret the Mayan calender, has the symbol at the end which although shows a life changing event, the animal symbol providing it, is a life giver. So who really knows what will happen? The alignment of the planets with the milky way will happen for the first time in 26,000 years. The world is millions of years old and has had life on it for a long period of time and has not been destroyed the last time it happened. The solar flares will be at their peak in their  11 year cycle but they are still the weakest in 50 years. Sure there is climate change, violence, pestilence, war, famine, such as we have seen before. We are still here. I don’t see a race of robots rising from the ground or zombies coming from the ground either. Their are no planets on a collision course for ours. The largest fastest pole change took 100 thousand years and that was considered hugely drastic. The real danger here is not from nature but from ourselves. As we get closer to the date 12-21-12 people are going to get more and more afraid and do things that are more and more stupid. There will be more desperation because of fear. More violence. More idiocy. That’s what we need to be afraid of. not the end of the world from a doomsday prophecy but the result of what the actual prophecy and it being hyped up will have on the human population. I can guarantee the rate of suicides will go up dramatically thursday. people will run up their credits cards and spend all of their money. people will continue to perpetrate more acts of violence on one another. There may be runs on banks. I’m talking worse case scenario. But it’s happened before. Remember Y2K? It was none too pretty in some places. Remember some of the other lesser known end of days prophecies and what people did? The world is not going to end on friday. We have been around to long. Yes creationists, the world is older than 6000 years old. It may end one day when our son dies. it may end when a meteorite crashes into the earth. But it’s not going to be this week. Let me tell you why. Because it would be to damned inconvenient for me. That’s the truth. I have a Ct scan tomorrow that i have to get poked and prodded for and I would hate to be irradiated again for nothing. I have appointments on friday. I am to busy preparing for christmas for the end of the world to happen. I have bought my kid waaaaaayyy too  many expensive presents for the end of the world to happen before christmas. It would totally bite the big one. And I have big plans for the new year. I have a life to live. My kid has a life to live. The world has a life to live. So friday just can’t be it. Bottom line. No Doomsday because frankly it just doesn’t fit into my schedule and for those of you who are afraid and nervous, don’t be. Say a little prayer and know that life has a way of continuing no matter what. Life begets life. The Universe is too amazing, this planet is too amazing and unique to just disappear. The human race is too unique to just disappear. So breathe, plan on spending time with those you love if you are worried and ride it out. But be safe. Stay inside and watch some tv and eat some good food and let the crazies do their thing. Love to you all my friends and be safe.